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Saturday, August 23, 2008

about the 15th. @ 8:06 PM

hi guys. as you guys probably know, i'll be leaving on the 15th september and now it finally starts to kick in; the fact that i'll be leaving to face a new world. it happened when my cousins were talking about bokh leaving soon; i started feeling a little off-balance and weird talking about it. it didn't seem so real that by this time next month, he won't be around during raya. and the same goes for me.

i dunno what i'm feeling right now. at one point, i'm feeling so sad that i'm gonna leave so much behind and i only have less than a month to be here. i feel like i need to do whatever i can to make me feel less empty inside before i leave. but i dunno what i need to do. there seems to be the need of accomplishing something before i go and time is running out.

i just wanna relax and enjoy my time left here. i dunno what is waiting for me there when i study and i dunno how to prepare for that. but the thing is, what i'm feeling is definitely not relaxed. and i am not enjoying myself. what i'm feeling now is stressed and the urge to just scream out in frustration for no real reason. i just wanna cry over all of this but i just can't seem to. at times, i even feel like i can;t wait to leave the country because it all seems overwhelming right now. it doesnt make sense why i'm feeling like this; i really feel so unstable right now.

i dont want more time for me to prepare yet i don't want time to fly by fast either. i don't know what i want and it is really frustrating to feel this way. i want comfort but i dunno what words i want to hear. i want to be understood, but what is there to understand right now when it is all mixed up? i wanna let everything out but why burden someone over nothing and something that is unsure of?

is this how i'm going to leave things before i go? or should i do something to make me feel better? what if i come out selfish? if i keep it in, what if i regret it in the future and be bitter about it? i really dunno what to do to make me feel less empty inside before i go. i don't wanna leave like this.

life in the university won't be the same as in MS. i'm sure gonna miss the things we do back at our school. one of the best chapters of my life :)

i don't actually wanna sound too depressed on this post. i'm sorry for that. the closer it gets to september, the more uptight i feel about leaving :( ehee, by the way, i want a sleepover at my place for the girls. probably next week. i let you guys know ah bila? i'll get rid of my cats for the night, i promise. please come :) and look at my new hermione granger look. hahaha. bawa board games or anything lah. i have monopoly, game of life and twister here. nyehehehe. muah muah ;)